It's Gonna Be a Great Year!

As part of a birthday ritual, I read through my old journal entries because I believe it's always good to look back once in a while. I came across this one entry that I wrote a while back. The funny thing is, it felt like I just wrote it a few minutes ago as it pretty much echoes what I'm feeling right now. The only difference is, I would be listening to this song while I ponder these thoughts ( Coldplay – Viva La Vida). So - here it goes.

June 14 3:54 AM

The past few years have been really difficult but I think you're finally getting to the breakthrough [point]. You're not completely in the light yet but you feel the warmth and the sky looks like dawn is trying to break. These are the quiet, melancholy, peaceful moments -- there's no one around, the air is crisp and clean, the sky is a deep, dark blue and only the brightest stars are still shining. You love this time of the day, when you're getting ready to say goodnight to the past but tomorrow is not quite there yet. This is the moment of now -- there's regret but joy, a sadness but light, a smile for what you've done but glad that's over, looking forward to something new but not knowing what's ahead. No one intruding, nothing to hinder anything but just the joy of lingering in the moment.

No rush, no rush. The light will come soon enough, the illumination you may be looking for to show you the way. The clarity of sight you may need to fully appreciate the beauty around... or the blinders removed that allows you to see the truth. If you're determined and ready to be part of a new day, it will always come.

So relish this moment. Say your goodbye's. Reminisce about the past. Allow the memories to make you smile. Allow the dreams to excite you. Make a list of the things you will look forward to. Take a deep breath and let happiness in. Exhale and blow the tethers out.

You will never be as happy as your are at this moment. This time of clarity and inactivity is fleeting... especially for you. But, you know you need to let go and step forward. We will wait -- while the darkness still hides you, relish it, hold it and enjoy. As it gets light -- you know what to do. Live and be seen. Act on the decisions you've made and TAKE A CHANCE!

4:15 AM